I feel like the stupidest person living. I'm screwing up my sleeping patterns and everything is not in order when I need it to be. Maybe I should try to have a fixed timetable for myself instead of feeling forever tired..
Can't forget how Bobz made us go downstairs to pick up toothpicks, HAHAHA. Syazana was telling me how disturbing we were to everyone's lessons, HAHAH. Bobz's idea my friend, cause got special guest, the HOD, so must make it fun, HAHA :) Jamie came back today!! <3 so happy to see her. First day without her felt different. I don't really know how to describe it.
I feel so bad for not staying back today. I missed out the fun :( Qiaoxu checked the bus an told me it was coming in 20mins, so I still had time. But apparently they weren't ready. And I was desperately trying to get them to 快点 so that I won't miss out, but I guess I failed. And the consequence I had to face was missing out the fun. Then qiaoxu was like 'the bus is coming, let's go' and I was in a dilemma. MORAL DILEMMA, HAHHAHA And so I was dragged to go home with her cause we're the only 2 who live nearby and take the same train.
I don't really know if I should go and sleep now or start my work. I feel so screwed up now that I don't even know what to do. I feel like a total failure, argh. Someone please save meeeee
Had a good talk with qiaoxu on the train, and yeah, I guess I should listen to her, to believe her and to trust her. She's someone I can entirely trust cause she's true to herself and never lies. I love her as a sister in Christ and I truly believe in everything she said. She seems to be helping me in her small ways and reasoning it out logically so that my brain can understand. I really thank her for 'saving' me and giving me advice before I fall further. She's pulling me up to be more Christ-like and I'm eternally grateful! :)
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