I don't really know what to dooooo

Yesterday was like food paradise!! I ate soooo much, HAHAHA so pig.. And we had Italian food for dinner! We ordered squid ink pasta just to try! It looked dangerous cause it was pure black, but it tasted surprisingly fantastic!! I loved it! And the lava cake, yumz

I almost overslept, luckily I was just in time to rush down before the car left!! *heaves a sigh of relief HAHA

Lesson today was really deep and I couldn't really understand. Talked to Violet about it during lunch, and yeah, she couldn't really understand as well. But the lesson today was HUGE and really impactful to see things from a different perspective. Played cards and had lunch with Violet, Janelle and Xueyi. I don't really know how to play, luckily one brother came to help me, so at least I won't lose until so bad, HAHA

Zena is really going through a lot now.. She seems very burdened by her problems and i think it's affecting her really badly. I hope she cheers up and don't be toooo down.

I saw Zena's wrist today at church and I found out that she's been cutting herself lately. I don't really know how long I've cried or how many tears I've shed, but I'm really really scared for her!! I don't really know how to encourage her, and I didn't know that she'll do these kind of things, because she seemed like a really outgoing Christian. All I did was encourage her.. I really want to help her, but I don't really know how?!

To Zena, just want to let you know that everything's going to be alright.. Don't keep everything to yourself! If you need a listening ear, I'll be here for you, ALWAYS. I really hope that you'll get better soon. I love you soooo much!! <3

I don't really have any mood to think about myself now.. All I'm thinking about is how to help Zena!! I don't really care about that creep who texts me every single day. His 'good morning's and 'good night's are and will always be unanswered. Can't he see that I'm somewhat rejecting him, ARGH?!