What a day...

I kinda liked today since I got to skip Chinese and the 130 成语听写 which would literally kill me. Woah, and I think that Queenstown PDS quite zai, but they're not such a well-known school, though. And there's one guy who looks exactly like HaoJen (quoted by Rachel). He dropped his rifle, like what the crapp.. But their spinning quite nice!

Was quite disappointed today. I don't know whether I should just give up. The temptation is high. I really want to just close both eyes, let mistakes fly by and just take things as they are. Just let things be however it is right now. I really don't feel like doing anything since nothing changes no matter what I do. Feels as though my efforts are such a waste. It's not that I don't care, it's just that I'm tired. Tired of waiting for replies to SMSes, tired of having to pay for mistakes, tired for reminding and reminding even when I know it changes nothing, tired of trying my best to reply as soon as I can, just really tired of everything. Maybe it's because the workload is doubling at blasting speed, maybe it's just the lack of sleep, or maybe I'm just not cut out to be an NCO. But I really can't bring myself to this. I keep reminding myself and convincing myself that things will change for the better. I know it will, and that's what pushes me forward everyday. Things will get better..

We are a major source of help for some who are willing to learn and we really acknowledge your effort and your willingness to learn. Do continue learning with your positive attitude, it will do you good in the future. To be honest, we have been through all these before, we know all the tricks you all would come up with, so it's not difficult to make a smart guess. And those who do not want to use the opportunities we give them wisely, you are just shortchanging yourself and others won't get that opportunity as well. I really do hope that you will seize every opportunity and do your very best.

I'm having mixed feelings about tomorrow. I really want to enjoy myself with dear partner!! Rach thinks that we should not waste our efforts on those who are unwilling to learn. I kind of agree, and I really want to help those who want to learn. Even if you are a slow learner or are slower than the rest, at least you are willing to put in the effort, we will be there to help you through. I really appreciate those who put in the effort. They make Rach and my efforts worth it. But sometimes, Rach and I feel that if you don't want to try your best, why should we give you our best? It's tiring on our part and you're not gaining anything. Well, being an NCO is was never an easy job. Since the Seniors trusted me for this job, I guess I should put in my best nevertheless.

JUST A MEGA SHOUTOUT TO CHARLIE!!

Thanks Charlie'12 for always being there for me. We shared the laughter, we shared the tears. We struggled together, we earned our victory together. Thanks for making me who I am today. Okay, this is an impromptu message and I'm stuck! I LOVE YOU CHARLIE'12. Thanks for the beautiful memories!

'If someone sticks by you through your worst times, they deserve to be with you through your good times'