Hang in there!

Here I am just starting to study for Amath test. And crap, there is like so much to study. :(

Okay, I just had another major meltdown. I have them quite regularly these days, for reasons unknown. I tend to cry a lot when I'm stressed. And I'll usually do it in the toilet. Sometimes, it's hard to keep everything inside of you when you know that it's killing you from inside out. It's hard to not be able to openly show my emotions for fear of being judged. It's hard to keep doing what's right when it's starting to take a toil on you. It's hard...

It's not easy keeping up with the demands of both school life and CCA. Sometimes, things just get too much for you to handle. At times, you'd find yourself cracking under the pressure. Maybe it's because you're doing too much, maybe it's because you try too hard, maybe it's because there is no one there to help or maybe it's because you're doing more than you should.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm fighting a one-man fight. I'm there alone and there's no one else to help, to turn to, to seek advice, to find comfort. But maybe, it's the comfort after crying, after telling myself to hang on strong, to tell myself that life was never easy, but it's gonna be worth it, that spurs me on.

'Find a place inside where there is joy, and the joy will burn out the pain'

And I remembered what the Principal came and told my class today. To HANG IN there, because it's only gonna get better. We'll pull through this year together, through the joy and triumphs, through the pain and suffering, and emerging stronger and braver.

Okay, I kinda need to get started on Amath. Or else I'd be sleeping tomorrow morning. :(