31 DEC 13

Well, 2013 was a fantastic year, the year I dreaded to come, but pretty glad that it's almost over. In 2013, so many things happened, but these are the highlights! :)

Sec 1 orientation/Quest/campfire night

I still remembered how Rach and I slogged our guts out to prepare for everything, all the proposals and rehearsals and teaching of combat and FSD and learning PDS. I remembered how tiring it got and it was difficult, but I'm glad we did it. I was soooo glad when it was over, HAHA

INTRO OF NEW CADETS

Time to step up as a leader. Although this was quite new to me and I didn't really know what to expect, I thank them for being so understanding towards Rach and I as we were learning. And being the ones I got to spend my last part of my NC journey with.. They've been amazing, couldn't ask for a better batch.

Chinese intensives

I still remembered how we had to sit through intensives for weeks doing everything Chinese, with weekends packed with comprehension practices of past 8472763 years. The day-long intensives and laoshi not giving us any breaks, but we had fun together. I still remembered we were rejoicing when laoshi gave us even 5 mins break to rundown to the canteen to grab food. Many thanks to Phyu and 草包 for enduring through it with me..

CHINESE Os

How we were all freaking out before the paper and after. The paper was a killer paper and everyone was expecting the worst, didn't feel like it was my best, but life still goes on, sooo

ROD 2013

Time to step down came. It was hard and felt weird at first, but it took quite some getting used to. We laughed, we cried, and we braved through our NC journey together, so glad to have Delta with me.. DFTBA BFV'D

Random birthday celebrations with Delta

Everything that has to do with Delta is just absolutely amazing, no words can describe mah luve for delta

NCC DAY

The day we earned back our BUC trophy.. It was a day filled with pride, where our school flag flew down the flying fox. It was definitely a day to remember! And we also received the CM Philips award too!

Common test/mock test/MYE/Prelims

They had consistent apparances and it was so difficult to keep up at times, but I'm glad that it's over.

O LEVELS

As scared and nervous as I was, it was something we had to overcome. It was hard, especially the months leading up to it, and it got me questioning myself a bit as to whether I could handle the pressure. There were times where I broke down, where I wanted a break, where I didn't believe in myself, but I'm glad 4G1 was there with me all the way! ELEPHANTASTIC

OUTINGS

I still remembered the day Os ended, there was like outing after outing. It was fun and I was finally able to start enjoying life.. Madcows, foreverhungry, delta

PROM NIGHT

Beautiful people, delicious food, wonderful moments, an unforgettable starry starry night

HOLIDAYSSS

Korea and Malaysia. It gave me lots of time to myself. Spent it skiing, and most importantly, reflecting on life. I was reflecting about many things that happened, be it happy or sad, and being more thankful for the people, things and events.

This is all as of now. Although 2013 was great, I'm hoping for a better 2014!

CHRISTMAS!

So pretty!! Thanks Aunty can-can!! And just saying but my shirt is NOT untucked, just that I lost my 4th button on like practically every shirt I have. Because of my itchy fingers, I went to pluck them out, HAHA and lazy to sew back

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Went out shopping with my family for food for the Christmas dinner!! Bought IKEA meatballs, salad (which I'm obviously not gonna eat), PORK TROTTER <3, drinks, potato to make potato salad and many other things!! Couldn't wait for dinner tonight! :)

Dinner came, and it was a time where the whole family sat together at the table and feasted. We usually don't have a meals together except for family dinners outside, so today was really a great bonding time and I love it!! Ate lots of food and grew really fat.

Can't wait for tomorrow!! I made a deal with myself to control my temptations and only open the presents tomorrow..

Bye for now, I need my beauty sleep..

Pre-Christmas

Haven't been posting for a while now.. Anyways, CHRISTMAS is tomorrow!! So many things happened so quickly this holiday and time just passes so fast!!

Had a Christmas party in church during Friday's midweek and it was sooooo fun!! Haven't been to church in a longgg time due to traveling and many of the teens are in India now.. Anyways, there were sooo much good food during the party like Pizza Hut and KFC and potato chips and snacks and goodies, Ahhh, my guilty pleasures.

With Yun Sheen. Haven't seen her for sooo long since she moved to Campus and I'm still in teens..

ANYWAYSSS, this will be like one of the few Christmas that I'll spend in Singapore!! So excited! There are like so much food and goodies on the dining table that it's kinda over spilling. And we're going to have a DIY ginger bread house and Ikea meatballs and wonderful foods, I can't wait!! This is like the time where I can eat and eat and not worry about growing fat, I'll probably worry about it after Christmas, HAHA And that reminds me, I need to go Christmas shopping today!

KOREA + MALAYSIA

I wanted to reserve this post for the Korea and Malaysia trip! I haven't been blogging cause there was no internet, which is kinda a good thing I guess?

KOREA IS AMAZINGGGGG!!! It was winter and snowingg!! Quite cold, but we really enjoyed skiiing and the food! We ate BBQ like almost everyday, HAHAHA and shopping and yeah..

Came back for a day before heading to Sarawak for Aifei jiejie's wedding! It was a blast and we headed straight to the house to stay for the night. Had to wake up at 5.30AM the next day, my beauty sleep.. But everyone was already there. Got ready and waited for the groom to come and 求婚. They had the pedicure and medicure person, hair stylist, makeup person and who knows what all at the house, and sadly I was forced to be all girly and I gotta admit that it was quite itchy.. But all was well and I really enjoyed myself! Ate loads since Korea and I think I grew fatter :(

Ohwells, short post cause I'm quite lazy.. Hoping to visit Bangkok soon! Aunt's gonna bring me there!! Heard that there's lots of places to visit!!

My legs hurt…

Haven't updated for quite some time, been relatively busy going out.

Went to the zoo on Monday with my cousins. Nothing much happened apart from walking till my legs were sore. Saw the animals, and I'm honestly not an animal lover, so it was scary for me. Saw the statue of the seal which my siblings and I took a photo with ages ago when we were still young. IT'S STILL THERE!! And the best part was that it was raining, so we had to wear a poncho. I went around the zoo looking like a fat white creature. Yeap, that's all, nothing much happened..

Went to Gardens by the Bay on Tuesday and again, I'm uninterested in flowers. Walked around and saw a few things, that's it.

Wednesday was rest day, but we went out shopping at IMM. Walked quite a bit as well.

Thursday, we went to the turtle tortoise museum at Chinese garden. The creatures were allowed to ROAM FREELY?! I didn't like the idea and they seemed to be after me!! Jumped on the table and sat there, got terribly judged, but not many people so lucky me! Went to pepper lunch for dinner and walked quite a bit..

I figured out that I would be better just standing at a corner taking pictures..

THEY'RE COMING FOR MEEEEE

Traveling tonight. Heading to KOREA this time around. Can't wait for skiing and first touch of real ICE!! And being forever the last, I haven't packed at all.. If Kylie finds out she'll kill me, HAHA I still remembered last time I was talking to her on the phone till 10 mins before we were supposed to leave and I haven't packed. Her reaction was priceless, HAHA

Bored beyond belief

Honestly, I'm kinda feeling really really horribly bored nowadays.. Maybe cause suddenly, there's nothing to do and so much time, so unlike what I've ever experienced before.

Cousins still here and many things happening, but with the boys only. And today, I spent sitting and rotting on my chair, alone at home with 3 boys. I seriously can't wait for tomorrow!! Going out again! Hunger games II with our Sec 2 IC clique! Can't wait!! Finally an escape from this boredom.

Holidaying soon too!! Hope more outings are gonna be planned. Bored to death at home..

Post prom + day out with Khoo

YAYY!! Finally found the photos of post prom, the hotel room madness!!

DA BEFORE AND AFTER!! Being ever forgetful, I kinda forgot to bring my spectacles that day. Luckily I brought extra contacts, so it saved me from becoming blind.. And I realized that the photo Nat snapped wasn't that unglam, so...

Here's Arina and I, being the last 2 to wake up, HAHA #sleepyheads

Coming back to yesterday, went out with Kylie to jalan jalan around orchard cause very bored at home. Walked and walked and shopped and talked, it was a great time! Not to mention that we got lost cause orchard is just tooooo huge. Bought a new pair of shoes as well! And we met at like 12noon and walked till like 6pm, hopefully lost some weight in the process..

Crashed Nan Hua's prom which was also at Orchard Hotel!

Then headed to Changi Airport to pick up my cousins who came from Malaysia. Yes, they're only 13 and 9 years old and they came alone. They made this trip down just so that they can be with my brother, HAHA Had dinner at Changi Village and headed home. Boys were playing their phones, PS3 and whatnots, haizz, there goes my beauty sleep :(

iPhones are lying everywhere, TV on 24/7. Luckily we have 2 TVs at home, if not I wouldn't be able to watch any shows. Hope tonight won't be that noisy so I can watch my X Factor in peace, HAHA

This week is gonna be so busy! But filled with the things I enjoy doing! Here's a part of my plan, haven't finished it yet, though

Today - going to Yiming's house for tea, then to school for camp (?)

Tomorrow - Dinner with ex NCOs, dk whether it's still on

Saturday - Hunger Games 2 with Sec 2 IC clique. Grand uncle and grand Aunty coming down. I think I need to find somewhere else to stay, too many people in the house. I need space to breathe too

Sunday - church. No plans yet, but probably going for lunch then lepak at someplace.

Further plans have yet to be decided. Okay, bye for now.

I love it this way...

Graduation night with the theme of starry starry night proved to be beyond awesome!! Although I honestly don't think the food was worth the money, but the fun and friendships made it all worthwhile! Had great fun and after that, we stayed in orchard hotel. So thankful that Yigin's mum sponsored the entire hotel room so YAYY!! And I don't wanna go home cause I'm lazy and my home very far, HAHA

I know I look extremely weird and different (?), ahh, but don't laugh at me. This is one of the rare of the rarest times that I'm even wearing a dress

Madcows, without Celeste, sadly

#foreverhungry

Slept over with Nat, Arina and Yigin ANDD GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUNN~ It was an awesome night, okay, maybe early morning too! The bath was so great there was hot water and I finally washed everything off and returned to my normal self. Many thanks to Yigin and Nat for teaching me how to wash off makeup cause I have no idea how to do these things. And we didn't know what to do, so we had heart to heart, HAHA all the lovey dovey romances and crushes, yeah, it was great! Slept at 2am, officially broken my record! Not planning to post any photos of sleeping kiddos, so yeap!

Woke up at 9.30am today, freaking early. And as usual, I was the last to get out of bed, HAHA, and Arina was the second last, making us prone to being captured asleep. YES, naughty Nat snapped a pic of us sleeping. Luckily, being nice Nat, she didn't post, HAHAHA Went to astons for lunch, good food!! And headed home to relax and plant myself infront of my long lost computer. We just reunited not long ago.

Was planning to plan my time for this longg holiday, but dear friend procrastination kicked in. This is quite ridiculous that I even procrastinate doing the things that I love to do. Gold medallist for procrastination, what to do?! And I was thinking about what to do when suddenly I have so many people asking me if I'm free on whatever day.. Guys, I'm freaking free everyday at the moment before I enjoy the overseas vacations planned, so I agreed for everything. I didn't even bother to check if any of the timings clash, shall do that soon, HAHA

So going out with Kylie tomorrow to jalan jalan.. She saved me from the boredom at home and she watch drama until her eyes rotting, so great time to have a break! Going back to how we used to last time, I'm happy!!

Too excited now, but I need to get some rest. If I sleep in tomorrow and meet Kylie late, she'll literally slaughter me, so I'd better not. And nov camp should be coming up I think, I don't even know when. HUNGER GAMES with the lower sec IC group! Can't believe IC/IH/whatever nonsense they made us do has made us grow so close to each other! IC GRP 7 <3

I can't fall asleep! :(

It's gonna be over REAL soon!! Can't wait for all the fun that late nov till Dec will bring, ahhhh!! I need to get this 3 papers over and done with.

Awake at 12.25am and can't sleep. Have been sleeping past midnight these past few days.. Can't seem to be able to fall asleep at all!! :( Insomnia hasn't gotten this worst ever before, and I don't know why..

I honestly don't think this is true, though..

By next weekend, I'LL BE FREE!! I don't really know what I'm typing, but I just hope to fall asleep really soon, this is getting tiring. :(

Screw her

Had a tiff with mei just now. I tried so much to be nice and everything and she was just being a total -. I so wanted her to just shut up and get lost, argh. Why is she so freaking annoying and a major hypocrite. She can just take my phone and use, yet no one can even lay a finger on her freaking phone. And she can just take whatever she needs from your desk and if you even get near hers, you'll get away with a beating. I just can't stand her anymore, what's wrong with her. Freaking idiot, argh, just spoilt my mood for the night.

I think Dad is getting from perculiar to weird to crazyyy, HAHAHA He's like planning to bring us for horse freaking riding this Sun. Are you crazy?! No way am I gonna sit on some furry hard scary living creature. The Australian experiences have killed me enough, sadly. Then go buffet. Everytime I eat buffet, I get reminded about the Brazilian one. $50/person, I heartache I tell you.. Then going to visit Aunt's new house and all. WOAHHH, this is like the most packed weekend, HAHAHAHAHA, I think I'm going mad

Tired because of today, but it has been great! Went back to HQ with Jo, Kyl, Jia, Keethan, Deb and Karen. Great catch up time and hilarious moments in the train with Jo, HAHAHAHA We alighted at the wrong stop because we overshot. We were like busy uncovering our new found mystery that we forgot all about our stop, HAHAHA Anyways, today has been great. Gonna stay up for X factor today

My purpose helps others

God will use everything in your life to help others. Think about Joseph. Bad things happened in his life. His brothers hurt him and sold him to Egypt. Joseph thought being in Egypt was bad, but it turned out to be good. He helped many people because he was in Egypt. God let the bad things happen because God knew that Joseph needed to be in Egypt to save food for everyone and keep them alive. God used every part of Joseph’s life to save other people.

Genesis 45:3-8 

Joseph spoke to his brothers: "I am Joseph. Is my father really still alive?" But his brothers couldn't say a word. They were speechless--they couldn't believe what they were hearing and seeing. "Come closer to me," Joseph said to his brothers. They came closer. "I am Joseph your brother whom you sold into Egypt. But don't feel badly, don't blame yourselves for selling me. God was behind it. God sent me here ahead of you to save lives. There has been a famine in the land now for two years; the famine will continue for five more years--neither plowing nor harvesting. God sent me on ahead to pave the way and make sure there was a remnant in the land, to save your lives in an amazing act of deliverance. So you see, it wasn't you who sent me here but God. He set me in place as a father to Pharaoh, put me in charge of his personal affairs, and made me ruler of all Egypt.

After the physics..

I decided to blog about today too! After Physics, it was a boring wait of 5 hours before the English LC. This 5 hours turned out real fun!

Went to ikea with Jo, Yigin, Nat, Qx and Arina. Treated ourselves to good food with good people to celebrate. Ate and ate and ate and ate. The chicken leg was so delicious and the signature meatballs, yumz..

Went back to school, then to the library for a nap. 1 hour nap. Brought my pillow to school so that I could sleep, but Qiaoxu stole it. Luckily there weren't many people or I'd be judged for my pillow, HAHA

Looking forward to DECEMBER!! Aunt bringing me to Bangkok! Then going for family holiday (as usual) to Korea!! I remembered we had a huge debate amongst ourselves cause they all wanted Australia and New Zealand, but I was so bent on not going there. It'll be winter in Korea and it'll be the first time I see/touch/feel ice, REAL ice!! I'm excited. Then going to Sarawak for my cousin's wedding, which I'm also excited. There'll be good food and hotel, HAHA and I really love the food in Sarawak. Everytime I go back, my aunts and uncles will cook my favourite same few dishes, yumz.. And spending Christmas at KL, I think, can't remember and didn't bother to find out the holiday dates.

I think we'll be having Christmas gift exchange with FOREVER HUNGRY as well!! Everyone's going to different countries like Turkey and Japan and China and Venice. I'm excited!!! :)

Can't wait for 15 Nov, the key to ultimate freedom..

It's party time!!

The journey of Os is almost over and it has truely been a roller coaster ride.

I remembered the 2 week break before the Os were the most stressful. I found myself doubting my capabilities a lot and the thought of maybe retaining so I would have more time. I remembered imagining myself sick or caught in a major accident or plagued with an illness so that I could retain and have more time for studying. The feeling of unpreparedness and doubt were constantly on my mind. But then again, I couldn't bear to see myself go through all that torture again. I was in a dilemma.

During Os, it was tiring. Mentally draining. I didn't realize that even doing Math would require so much energy. It was just draining me - physically, mentally, emotionally. I remembered AM. It was tougher than anyone had expected. I remembered fearing that I would not get an A1. It was a really bad feeling inside of me and the disappointments and let downs and not meeting expectations came back. I remembered crying so hard in the toilet and doubting myself a lot. I just wanted to quit, to give up. Luckily Grandma was there. She told me to stop focussing on the bad and maybe start focussing on the good. Why was I fearing when the papers aren't even marked? Why was I fearing when the results aren't out yet? But I just couldn't get that feeling out of me. I just couldn't stop thinking about it. It took many cryings in the toilet, where I could be by myself and expose a different side on me, a more vulnerable side, the emotional side. It took many self reflection - to let go and move on. I remembered PSLE, how I left 20 marks worth of questions blank because the paper was just TOO difficult, yet I could get an A*. It took constant reminders to stop pondering. It was a struggle. But finally, I managed to subdue the strong negative feeling and focused on the papers ahead.

Now, as the Os are ending (okay, not yet), I realized that it has been a bittersweet journey. It has not been easy, but thinking back, I'm glad I did it.

My eye twitching turned out to be a signal that A DISASTER was gonna happen :(

This is exactly how I'm feeling right now. Horrid.

My eyes have been twitching quite badly, I don't really know if it's going to be a disaster or something good.. Laughed a lot today with Keethan, Jia, Kylie and Karen during the 5 hour break. Didn't revise much for Maths, but it wasn't that bad.

I think Natalie's stress vibes have been passed on to me! Ohhmyy, but it might just be a good thing, HAHA

LESS THAN 1 MORE WEEK TO TEMPORARY FREEDOM, I can't wait!!

As Christ-follower, when you spend time reading the Word of God and time in prayer God gives you the opportunity to see life from a whole different perspective. It is like putting on a new set of glasses. They are not the type of glasses you get from your optometrist. They are spiritual glasses given to us through the Holy Spirit that help us see life from an eternal perspective. It will be so easy as we go through this day, to focus on the situations we will encounter with just our physical eyes, but God desires that we see things through His spiritual eyes. For the unseen things like faith, hope, and love are the things that are eternal and the only things that have true value in this life.

2 Corinthians 4:18 There's far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can't see now will last forever.

Graduation Day 2013

Last official day in crescent. It's like a mixed of feelings within me, firstly sad because these good times will never come by again and happy because lessons nowadays seriously bore me (esp math)

Today was memorable, really memorable. Started with a pic with dearest Alpha. I look seriously gross with my half opened eyes but I just couldn't help it since I had only 5 hours of sleep. As presents after presents piled up on my desk, I start to realize that once I leave, it'll all change. I felt a deep sense of loss. My classmates, my teachers and my peers.

I just wanna thank Miss Ting for constantly reminding me to believe in myself more and to Laoshi for her dedication and never ending support!! And to delta'13 for 4 awesome years! We've gone through so much together and it's our last stretch, let's hang in there. To 4G1'13, we did it again. CLASS OF THE YEAR is ours AGAIN!! Still can't believe that we won it for 2 consecutive years! Feel so proud of G1. Jiayous for Os and stay ELEPHANTASTIC!!

This is the last stretch. I hope that motivation and perseverance will pull me through this last few weeks.

SUPPORT

When scientists thrust men into space, they always fear these men may lose their link with earth. People huddle around their televisions and radios to learn whether the men splash down safely, and breathe a sigh of relief when the hatch is opened. Probably the greatest fear we "space laymen" have is that somehow contact with our earth may be lost and our astronauts cannot make it back. The astronauts simply must have a link with earth. And, just as they need an earthly link, each of us must have a heavenly one. 

Uzziah took the throne at age sixteen. Most boys would not have been able to handle such a responsibility, but God had given Uzziah a godly adviser. As long as Zechariah lived, Uzziah served God. However, after Zechariah's death, the king became proud. He invaded the office of the priesthood and as a punishment was smitten with leprosy. His sin cost him the comforts of the palace. Uzziah lived out the rest of his life in special houses set aside for lepers. God's Word says simply: ...and as long as he sought the LORD, God made him prosper. When Uzziah lost this link with God, his world fell apart. 

Just as the spaceship is dependent on the resources of earth, so we need divine direction and help. Without Christ, our life has little or no meaning. The saddest people on earth are those who have lost their link with the divine. Like Uzziah, they are living in the house of lepers when they could be dwelling in the palace of believers. It is vital that we understand this dependence principle. Without Christ, we are nothing; but as long as we seek Him, He will cause us to prosper.

Accidents do happen..

Wow, I haven't blogged for quite long already.. A few days ago, there was an accident outside Mum's office and apparently it was a hit-and-run accident. Mum's colleague, from China, was coming out of a taxi to enter the office and the taxi driver was helping to carry the luggage out. Suddenly, a reckless driver hit the taxi and the taxi turned 180 degrees and swung and hit the taxi driver and Mum's colleague. Both fell to the grass patch and Mum ran out of the office to see what happened after she heard the sound. Luckily, the hit-and-run driver got arrested. The taxi-driver was unconscious while Mum's colleague could still talk and tell Mum where was hurting. Unfortunately, the taxi-driver passed away already and Mum showed me the news on the newspaper. I feel so sad for his family and the taxi driver just didn't deserve to die. WHY did he have to die, he was just helping :( and Mum's colleague is still hospitalized and her husband is unable to come to Singapore because he is a government servant in China. I just hope for peace in the taxi-driver's family and that they would be able to cope with the passing and Mum's colleague would get well soon.

I just realize that there are so much homework that I just don't know where to start and I feel so burdened by every single thing on the list that it seems to be never ending. I'm tired.

Itchy itchy

Went to the doctor's today cause the itch is really making me feel so uncomfortable I feel like crying. Really respect those who can tahan this kinda itch cause it's seriously killing me.. Affected my productivity and I feel like crap. WHY does this kind of nonsense infect me NOW?! I feel like dying, argh.. Trying my best not to scratch, arghhhhh

Sharon has been having a breakdown these past few days. Hope she's able to cope with the stress and not put herself down to much. HAHA, to Sharon, if you ever escape your house at 9.30pm to RUN to relieve stress, tell me! I'll go down and maybe run with you? And if you need a listening ear, I'll be here too. I also have these kinda breakdowns and it's difficult to not have anyone who understands and is going through the same thing. Don't bottle everything up kayy, although that's like what I do, but I'll be here for you. LUVYA <3 my going to school buddy

So itchy..

I just got infected with some itch/rash/allergy/whoknowswhat that leaves me so itchy that I can't resist the temptation to scratch. This is horrible, I look like some horrid with all the red spots on me, arghhh.. And the worst thing is that it distracts me a lot from work and I get really pissed with myself for being unproductive. Haizz what should I do now?! I've like no known allergy and rashes rarely attack me so idk what this is.

Next week is like the last week of school!! :( Many memories, many stories, one crescent.

Argh, I don't feel like typing now. The itch is seriously taking a toll on me. This is crap.

ONE OF GOD'S WORKERS

How do you see yourself when you fail, when you completely blow it? Do you spend time thinking about all the ways you failed and that you are only as good as what you didn't do right? What does the enemy whisper in your ear when you've failed? Reminders of how you will never change, never grow? Reminders of the sin you have committed since you became a Christian?

For me, it's the reminders of all the times I've failed and convincing myself that I'm only as good as what I didn't do right. Even though I've tried to put these thoughts aside, the enemy loves to whisper in my ear, tempting me to doubt my salvation, my forgiveness, and my freedom.

Paul has just given the Corinthian church a strong rebuke. He said to them only eight verses earlier that he "could not address you as spiritual people, but as people of the flesh, as infants in Christ." In other words, they are so much like the non-Christian world around them that he can't even speak to them like the people of God, but instead needs to talk to them in baby talk, because they are so immature.

How then could Paul tell these Corinthians that they are God's fellow workers, God's field, and God's building so shortly after? He can tell them this because their identity is not found in what they have done, but what God in Christ did for them. They can be God's fellow workers, field, and building because, as verse 6 says, "God gave the growth.'

God is working through you to build up His kingdom and will use you in whatever way He chooses to be made much of. So, the next time the enemy would seek to whisper lies in your ear, remind him that you have been bought with the blood of Christ and are one of God's workers, a part of His field, and a brick in His building. Jesus will not let the church He is building fail or fall.

EMATH MADE MY DAY :)

Got back Emath today!! Was waiting sooooo super long for it! Glad to say, it brought the BIGGEST shock, and was well worth the wait! Like 85.5/100 mannn!!!!! #immahappykid

Had free period for chem today and there was no Chinese too! Today ended relatively well too, with jokes and fun times at the bus stop and in the train. Never laughed so hard before. Thanks to THE GOING HOME CLIQUE! HAHA, we couldn't think of a better name soyeah.. And I think the name sounds cool too! And there was like 9 out of 10 of the clique, yeah, we rule the world in the train, HAHA

Hope I'm suppressing the feelings well. Still thinking of how to improve on my humanities.. /drowns back in sorrow/

Jess seems to be seriously giving up on her goals. She wants to go to Nanyang now, like WHUT?! That smarty pants is like putting herself down really badly cause she thinks she can't go anywhere with her current L1R5. Celine got like a huge shock when she heard that Jess wants to go to Nanyang or whatever JC I go too. It'll be so cool if we go to the same JC! And I hope Jess is cheering up now, although I know she will usually get over things like really fast.

I feel like poop :(

Got back a few more prelim papers today. Was quite happy with AM, but other than that, I felt horrible. I don't know but this feeling of disappointment and feeling that I've let so many people down is just terrible! :( I'm sorry, I really am. I wanted to make you all happy, but I brought sorrow. I wanted to make you proud, but I brought disappointment. I'm such a disgrace..

I'm feeling really helpless and hopeless and on the verge of giving up on myself. I know I can't give up now, and I hope that this feeling would be suppressed till after Os. There's this feeling of numbness in me and I don't know if anyone can even understand me. I seem to self doubt and self criticize a lot nowadays.. I don't really know what's happening to me :(

This is exactly how I feel now. Argh, this sucks..

I know this post is very emo and I don't usually show this side of me much. Okay, I'll try to make things a little better, I hope..

Had CHAMPION SEMINAR today. It was awesome!! Great catchup time with Delta! Love them loads <3

MARSA MATHRU GROUP PIC!

Before we had our 'feast'

BORN FOR VICTORY, DELTA <3

I'm like trying to bury the feelings deep within myself. Hope it works and I'll trudge on strong..

The day ended real late

Relatives came over yesterday! Picked them up from woodlands quite late.. Slept past midnight as usual.

When to church today and had a great time! Then we went out to eat and eat and eat till about 6pm before we finally arrived back home.. Rested a while and their parents came. Had dinner and played. I carried Joss till my hand's hurting and my muscles have like no strength to even lift my phone up..

End of Sept hols. This is demoralizing and highly horrifying. Os are coming, and obviously nervousness and fear will be inside of you. And getting back prelim papers tomorrow. I'm scared. Just chatted with Jessica AKA DA PRO and yeah.. Chem's first, this is horrid. And we end at 1pm!! Yay, so early!

Faye jiejie's wedding in Dec and I'm like supposed to be the FREAKING BRIDESMAID?!?! Ohh NONONONONO, this can't be happening. Hopefully plans will change since it's not confirmed yet.

Imagine me as the bridesmaid, gosh, I can't even bring myself to imagine. Firstly, I'll most probably burst the dress with all my fats. Next, I wouldn't be able to follow my plans and wear my jeans and sneakers, they're my #ootd :( Don't tell me that I'll have to wear heals, cause I'll most probably trip and fall and embarrass myself. But thinking about it, I won't really have to worry about my clothes cause they will provide everything! Just that I won't look good and probably embarrass myself. But whatever the outcome of the discussion by the adults, I'll just accept my fate.. It'll be the first time I'm doing such a thing and I'll even have the honor of sitting at the 'most honorable people''s table and get served food the first, HAHA YAY!! And maybe just too try things out. Hope that I won't freak anyone out with my hideous looks or embarrass myself my tripping and falling everywhere.

This is demoralizing..

I just received our new timetable thanks to ROYAL ROSELIA ROSE who stole her sister's slate to open the zip file the Principal sent cause it wasn't possible to open it using our phones and I haven't touched the computer in agesss.. Mock test schedule out already, oh the horror

NOT exempted from SS, as expected cause how good can my SS get :( haizz, need to study SBQ. Actually, it's not a lot as compared to SEQ, I guess? And exempted from bio mock, woohoo! But I think I might just go for it, if I have time and have studied that is..

School's starting soon. I feel scared, fear, insecurity, uncertainty as to what to expect.. Os is coming so super soon :( and graduation :'( Just reminds me, I haven't prepared graduation gifts :(

I'm getting FAT :(

Today was quite normal. Went out to the library to study with Kiren but she was spazzing over stuff which I can never comprehend, and I guessed she just needed a listening ear, so I just listened and replied 'okay' where appropriate.. I don't even know what she's spazzing about, HAHA and I spent most of the time doing my work that I don't even know when she's talking, HAHA, sorry, I'm horrible! :( and she'll get the hint and get back to work.

Mum said that I'm getting fat! What does one expect from a person like me who does minimal exercise and eats like some pig?!

HAHA, pooh bear!!

SEP HOLS 2013

Today was relatively a mix of good and bad I guess? Yeah, there were distractions and I kinda fell for a few, AND I FELT TERRIBLY STUPID ABOUT IT!! :(

Bro made me laugh so hard just now, or maybe it wasn't him and that I just went high. Yeah, got scolded cause I was hysterical and disturbing his process of homework, so I had to do the dishes :( Gotta admit that I'm horrible at housework..

Relatives coming over for the weekend! I'm super excited, but I think I'll have to be coped up in the room.. :( And it'll be so super noisy that I don't think concentration would be even possible, haizz.. Hope it'll be a productive weekend

What's a holiday?

September holidays are here.. And I'm not excited one bit. Haven't posted for a while now and I don't think anyone reads this, but ohwells, I shall post for myself to read.

Last week was slack. Too slack. After Monday's exam, we went home, which was about 12nn? Ended at 12.30pm and 12.45pm on Tuesday and Wednesday. Thursday was Teachers' Day, so ended at 11+ and Friday was FREE. So the week a whole was just slack.

And I can't believe it's September holidays already. Time flies just tooooo fast. We're gonna graduate so super soon, argh, I'm gonna miss everyone :( Been thinking about Graduation gifts recently.

ALERT: the creep is back in action!!

Didn't talk to him for super long now, and ever since he saw me at the bus stop after teacher's day, things are getting weirder.. Luckily meimei was going home with me so I'd just ignore him or pretend he didn't exist, but my poor phone took the rap for me. But argh, he's getting grosser and I'm just ignoring cause I really don't know what to do.. Someone has got to save me outta this crap!

Hoping that the holiday would be productive. It's the last lap, hope I won't let anyone down..