Screw her

Had a tiff with mei just now. I tried so much to be nice and everything and she was just being a total -. I so wanted her to just shut up and get lost, argh. Why is she so freaking annoying and a major hypocrite. She can just take my phone and use, yet no one can even lay a finger on her freaking phone. And she can just take whatever she needs from your desk and if you even get near hers, you'll get away with a beating. I just can't stand her anymore, what's wrong with her. Freaking idiot, argh, just spoilt my mood for the night.

I think Dad is getting from perculiar to weird to crazyyy, HAHAHA He's like planning to bring us for horse freaking riding this Sun. Are you crazy?! No way am I gonna sit on some furry hard scary living creature. The Australian experiences have killed me enough, sadly. Then go buffet. Everytime I eat buffet, I get reminded about the Brazilian one. $50/person, I heartache I tell you.. Then going to visit Aunt's new house and all. WOAHHH, this is like the most packed weekend, HAHAHAHAHA, I think I'm going mad

Tired because of today, but it has been great! Went back to HQ with Jo, Kyl, Jia, Keethan, Deb and Karen. Great catch up time and hilarious moments in the train with Jo, HAHAHAHA We alighted at the wrong stop because we overshot. We were like busy uncovering our new found mystery that we forgot all about our stop, HAHAHA Anyways, today has been great. Gonna stay up for X factor today

My purpose helps others

God will use everything in your life to help others. Think about Joseph. Bad things happened in his life. His brothers hurt him and sold him to Egypt. Joseph thought being in Egypt was bad, but it turned out to be good. He helped many people because he was in Egypt. God let the bad things happen because God knew that Joseph needed to be in Egypt to save food for everyone and keep them alive. God used every part of Joseph’s life to save other people.

Genesis 45:3-8 

Joseph spoke to his brothers: "I am Joseph. Is my father really still alive?" But his brothers couldn't say a word. They were speechless--they couldn't believe what they were hearing and seeing. "Come closer to me," Joseph said to his brothers. They came closer. "I am Joseph your brother whom you sold into Egypt. But don't feel badly, don't blame yourselves for selling me. God was behind it. God sent me here ahead of you to save lives. There has been a famine in the land now for two years; the famine will continue for five more years--neither plowing nor harvesting. God sent me on ahead to pave the way and make sure there was a remnant in the land, to save your lives in an amazing act of deliverance. So you see, it wasn't you who sent me here but God. He set me in place as a father to Pharaoh, put me in charge of his personal affairs, and made me ruler of all Egypt.

After the physics..

I decided to blog about today too! After Physics, it was a boring wait of 5 hours before the English LC. This 5 hours turned out real fun!

Went to ikea with Jo, Yigin, Nat, Qx and Arina. Treated ourselves to good food with good people to celebrate. Ate and ate and ate and ate. The chicken leg was so delicious and the signature meatballs, yumz..

Went back to school, then to the library for a nap. 1 hour nap. Brought my pillow to school so that I could sleep, but Qiaoxu stole it. Luckily there weren't many people or I'd be judged for my pillow, HAHA

Looking forward to DECEMBER!! Aunt bringing me to Bangkok! Then going for family holiday (as usual) to Korea!! I remembered we had a huge debate amongst ourselves cause they all wanted Australia and New Zealand, but I was so bent on not going there. It'll be winter in Korea and it'll be the first time I see/touch/feel ice, REAL ice!! I'm excited. Then going to Sarawak for my cousin's wedding, which I'm also excited. There'll be good food and hotel, HAHA and I really love the food in Sarawak. Everytime I go back, my aunts and uncles will cook my favourite same few dishes, yumz.. And spending Christmas at KL, I think, can't remember and didn't bother to find out the holiday dates.

I think we'll be having Christmas gift exchange with FOREVER HUNGRY as well!! Everyone's going to different countries like Turkey and Japan and China and Venice. I'm excited!!! :)

Can't wait for 15 Nov, the key to ultimate freedom..

It's party time!!

The journey of Os is almost over and it has truely been a roller coaster ride.

I remembered the 2 week break before the Os were the most stressful. I found myself doubting my capabilities a lot and the thought of maybe retaining so I would have more time. I remembered imagining myself sick or caught in a major accident or plagued with an illness so that I could retain and have more time for studying. The feeling of unpreparedness and doubt were constantly on my mind. But then again, I couldn't bear to see myself go through all that torture again. I was in a dilemma.

During Os, it was tiring. Mentally draining. I didn't realize that even doing Math would require so much energy. It was just draining me - physically, mentally, emotionally. I remembered AM. It was tougher than anyone had expected. I remembered fearing that I would not get an A1. It was a really bad feeling inside of me and the disappointments and let downs and not meeting expectations came back. I remembered crying so hard in the toilet and doubting myself a lot. I just wanted to quit, to give up. Luckily Grandma was there. She told me to stop focussing on the bad and maybe start focussing on the good. Why was I fearing when the papers aren't even marked? Why was I fearing when the results aren't out yet? But I just couldn't get that feeling out of me. I just couldn't stop thinking about it. It took many cryings in the toilet, where I could be by myself and expose a different side on me, a more vulnerable side, the emotional side. It took many self reflection - to let go and move on. I remembered PSLE, how I left 20 marks worth of questions blank because the paper was just TOO difficult, yet I could get an A*. It took constant reminders to stop pondering. It was a struggle. But finally, I managed to subdue the strong negative feeling and focused on the papers ahead.

Now, as the Os are ending (okay, not yet), I realized that it has been a bittersweet journey. It has not been easy, but thinking back, I'm glad I did it.

My eye twitching turned out to be a signal that A DISASTER was gonna happen :(

This is exactly how I'm feeling right now. Horrid.

My eyes have been twitching quite badly, I don't really know if it's going to be a disaster or something good.. Laughed a lot today with Keethan, Jia, Kylie and Karen during the 5 hour break. Didn't revise much for Maths, but it wasn't that bad.

I think Natalie's stress vibes have been passed on to me! Ohhmyy, but it might just be a good thing, HAHA

LESS THAN 1 MORE WEEK TO TEMPORARY FREEDOM, I can't wait!!

As Christ-follower, when you spend time reading the Word of God and time in prayer God gives you the opportunity to see life from a whole different perspective. It is like putting on a new set of glasses. They are not the type of glasses you get from your optometrist. They are spiritual glasses given to us through the Holy Spirit that help us see life from an eternal perspective. It will be so easy as we go through this day, to focus on the situations we will encounter with just our physical eyes, but God desires that we see things through His spiritual eyes. For the unseen things like faith, hope, and love are the things that are eternal and the only things that have true value in this life.

2 Corinthians 4:18 There's far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can't see now will last forever.

Graduation Day 2013

Last official day in crescent. It's like a mixed of feelings within me, firstly sad because these good times will never come by again and happy because lessons nowadays seriously bore me (esp math)

Today was memorable, really memorable. Started with a pic with dearest Alpha. I look seriously gross with my half opened eyes but I just couldn't help it since I had only 5 hours of sleep. As presents after presents piled up on my desk, I start to realize that once I leave, it'll all change. I felt a deep sense of loss. My classmates, my teachers and my peers.

I just wanna thank Miss Ting for constantly reminding me to believe in myself more and to Laoshi for her dedication and never ending support!! And to delta'13 for 4 awesome years! We've gone through so much together and it's our last stretch, let's hang in there. To 4G1'13, we did it again. CLASS OF THE YEAR is ours AGAIN!! Still can't believe that we won it for 2 consecutive years! Feel so proud of G1. Jiayous for Os and stay ELEPHANTASTIC!!

This is the last stretch. I hope that motivation and perseverance will pull me through this last few weeks.

SUPPORT

When scientists thrust men into space, they always fear these men may lose their link with earth. People huddle around their televisions and radios to learn whether the men splash down safely, and breathe a sigh of relief when the hatch is opened. Probably the greatest fear we "space laymen" have is that somehow contact with our earth may be lost and our astronauts cannot make it back. The astronauts simply must have a link with earth. And, just as they need an earthly link, each of us must have a heavenly one. 

Uzziah took the throne at age sixteen. Most boys would not have been able to handle such a responsibility, but God had given Uzziah a godly adviser. As long as Zechariah lived, Uzziah served God. However, after Zechariah's death, the king became proud. He invaded the office of the priesthood and as a punishment was smitten with leprosy. His sin cost him the comforts of the palace. Uzziah lived out the rest of his life in special houses set aside for lepers. God's Word says simply: ...and as long as he sought the LORD, God made him prosper. When Uzziah lost this link with God, his world fell apart. 

Just as the spaceship is dependent on the resources of earth, so we need divine direction and help. Without Christ, our life has little or no meaning. The saddest people on earth are those who have lost their link with the divine. Like Uzziah, they are living in the house of lepers when they could be dwelling in the palace of believers. It is vital that we understand this dependence principle. Without Christ, we are nothing; but as long as we seek Him, He will cause us to prosper.